Laid Off ! February 2019 to Today

In February of this year,  I was laid off from a job that  1. I was truly good at   2. I absolutely loved . 

Looking back on the last 9 months, I cannot remember a whole lot that was said except one man in my office.. who I will admit was not a huge fan of me , looked me straight in the face and said " well , I can state without a doubt you are the most fearless person I have ever met." 

This statement didn't actually resonate with me at the time,  I took my severance with my mind yelling at me ,  "Well, Woman,  at 45 what are you going to do now " ?

   It wasn't until I had replaced a window at home, built a baby garden, started a business with manufacturing all over the world that those words hit home. It was in August when all my clothing from my new business was arriving that I thought of his statement.   In those 6 months , with the support of my husband,  it never occurred to me  that I couldn't do any of the things that I jumped into..surrounded by 12 outfits in hundreds of sizes... It had never once entered my mind on whether it was possible or not.

So as I sat there,  trying to figure out my website,  listing clothes,  buying UPC's and finding a new job to help pay the bills once this was done.. it finally occurred to me what his statement meant.

I realized that I am truly fearless.  I am not afraid to go anywhere,  talk with anyone or try anything.  If I read a job description and can even imagine I can do the work,  I apply for the job.  

So , how did I become so fearless ?  What did my parents do in raising me that created this sense of self?  This absolute knowledge that I can work and achieve almost everything that I want and that when I fail.. it is not something that is horrible ?  What did my parents ( who are amazing people) do well and not so well and how can I share all this with someone that might need to hear it.   What did I personally do well and not so well ?

People move away and isolate their selves anymore.  They dont really discuss things with friends for fear of looking bad.. or family for pride reason.. and there is so much on the internet,  good , bad,  and sheer ugly ... how do you know if what  your doing is right ?

As my best friend said when you have kids, " you don't,  in my opinion if they don't have to spend more than 2 years in therapy for what you did as a parent , that's a total win"...  you can imagine why I love her so much.  

Two years ago this article came out  stating that  American children’s mental health is worrying experts, with one in five kids suffering from a diagnosable mental, emotional or behavioral disorder. (https://www.nbcnews.com/health/kids-health/generation-risk-america-s-youngest-facing-mental-health-crisis-n827836 )  

Things have only gotten worse. So lets figure this out,  Lets talk and Lets try to help kids grow up less afraid because.. the reality, the world. .is better than its ever been and they should believe that.

ML

Ps.  I am pretty average and it took me a long time to realize my own superpowers.. we all have them.. mine is talking and honesty.. both are ingrained!   

PSS I hope to hear from you.