Day 2 - Active Brain

At times I wish my brain could turn off.  My brilliant writing coach said to just let your thoughts come out without rhyme or reason .. to get the words on paper. But how do you explain that brain is like a tumbleweed currently ... a bit dry , with large holes that rolls around past things that I want to do, need to do and gets lost in the internet rolling in the wind down YouTube videos of how to write a book in a weekend and the joys of storytelling . 

How do I change the tumbleweed to a glorious ball of knowledge where I am balanced on top mostly heading the right direction ? 

How do i not let my time get sucked down rabbit holes of Twitter and politics and horses? Do I need to get a system together and a schedule and adhere to it religiously? Is this where we find our balance in forcing hardship and dedication on our lives when in essence our brain is just like any other animal and constantly looking for the path of ease? 

Today I decided for 17 days I am going to try this path ... the dedicated , structure of daily life and hope that some serendipity can squeeze its way into my moments as I work to achieve some long terms dreams-  a healthy horse , a much thinner me , a written novel and some money saved not spent. 

As I think back over the last couple of days ,  I see the magic in my life — my best friend telling me I need more leg and cheering me on my NOT lame horse for once ,  my husband kissing me on the way to the barn and then saying “ alexa, play still into you “ as he does the dishes . 

My granddaughter calling because she got her horse dress and needed to say she missed me. My son admitting to me he needed time off from school.  I am going to stuff my tumbleweed full of scheduling and actively pay attention to the joys God provides that are easy to miss . 

I will find my path to move forwards because I will be looking forward , not to the holes in my ball !