Day I skipped a few

 I didn’t write over the weekend.  Clarity often times comes at the oddest moments.  

I have realized I am a difficult person. Somewhere in my core is a very strong pillar of right and wrong. It is a group of core beliefs of doing right by others that it makes me difficult to deal with.  I always am on the side of freedoms and clients that I shoot myself in the back at jobs by being difficult. 

To top it off I make a lot of errors.  I can be detailed orientated but more often than not I am a big picture girl and small errors weasel their way into my work ... 

I guess I feel off realizing this about myself .  I am difficult and mediocre and fail almost every time. 


I always start and then have clarity in myself .. though this week I realize I am difficult to deal with because of this pillar of convictions. 

I really do need this to change .  How do I go about it ? First I believe I have to get off most of social media ... I get to reading articles that burn 🔥 my soul in how wrong they are.  They cause me to draw up anger and release it in other situations that don’t call for it .  

Maybe it’s menopause at my age ? But I have to learn to be nicer , more bending ... I need some active changes in the small details of my life . 

What I am doing at the moment isn’t making me happier or healthier or a better person. 

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