Days

 I haven’t written for days as I had surgery and have sunken into a bit of melancholy. I have written some of the actual book I am trying to write and it was complete crap. 

I am working but barely and watching my children feel like a complete failure. 

I don’t see the point of me 

In a vast world of miracles I certainly am not of of them 

Mediocre and blasé 

I try and fail 

Try and fail 

Try and fail 

Until I am left wondering why ? What’s the point of me ? 

Was it to give a home to my brindle pound puppy ? 

Was it to love my lame chestnut gelding ? 

Was it to raise three selfish and self centered kids ?

Or was it simply to love my husband who was alone in this world until I shoved in . 

What’s the point of being good and having morals and being unappreciated? 

Why work so hard when you would be replaced within a week ? 

If I didn’t reach out , who would reach for me ?


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